Sunday, May 25, 2008

Reflections on Joy

I'm in such a great space in my life these days, and it feels like a happy accident that I'm here and I'm so happy. And yet, when I really think about what has been happening, I can see that my own work and intentions have brought me to this happy place.

I found myself with a project delay that meant I had a couple of unexpected weeks off in October 2006. Facing a blank schedule, I made a decision to spend the time investing in something purely for myself. Ever since I moved into this house, I have had a few boxes marked "important papers" that I hadn't touched that had become a cloud following me, nagging me, reminding me of things undone. It was quite a chore to sort, file and shred these papers, but I didn't stop until I was done. I developed a new paperwork system for my personal finances, product manuals, warranties, and personal documents. A system that really works! I knew the undone work was weighing on me, but I didn't realize how much until it was gone. I felt like I was walking on air for some time.

That got me rolling. That winter, I made a decision to focus every night before I went to bed on the things I want in my life. The list ranged from objects (like a new truck) to experiences (like doing more art) to character qualities. The results were extraordinary. Things that I didn't even have on my list showed up in my house, people invited me to come along to do some really fun things, and I took many steps towards acting and thinking like the person I really want to be.

In January, my client shifted my project schedule and I again had time on my hands. This time, I took apart my junk room and created my studio. I pulled every tub and box of art supplies into the garage and sorted them. I bought a bookcase to house them, rebuilt the closet, and painted the room. I gave myself a space where I can express myself easily. No more taking over the kitchen table and island to do projects and then struggling to make meals and living with the art mess all of the time. I had a huge garage sale, and gave away the remaining stuff. Again, I felt I was walking on air.

These things have stripped away the crusty layer of living and have set me free to live more of the life I have imagined. I can't wait to see what happens next.

1 comment:

robin dudley-howes said...

Hi Charlene
Thanks for leaving a comment on my blog. It's always a thrill! I LOVE this quote. It is something I aspire to everyday. Will you be at AU this year? If so seek me out so we can meet!